Bobby Brown @bobbyd0g@hellsite.net

it begins

I had a stroke. I'll be okay, but, like... what the fuck.

There's hardly a doctor's word uttered that'll get you shitting your pants faster than "lesions". Here's hoping I didn't have a stroke! Second MRI coming up.

Next time somebody just forces you to keep working through deadly fatigue, tell them to fuck themself.

Just a few more tests here at the hospital, then hopefully I should be released tomorrow. I will certainly remember and share these lessons lifelong.

Ooh I went to the GOOD hospital this time. 11/10 what a difference. Toprol, Valium, Zofran, and a banana bag instantly with open ears, broad knowledge, and absolute diligence. I'm surviving this.

Just realized FF7's theme from Cosmo Canyon is the same chord progression from Wailing Souls -- Jah Give Us Life, transposed up a step. Both beautiful works I find very moving.

My friend Cloudy is doing a 24hr Powerwash stream for Extralife raising money for children's hospitals, please consider supporting :) https://twitch.tv/cloudyobsession

Uh-oh. Guess the maintenance deficit at Hellsite has broken Mastodon threading pretty completely.

Being that I'm seriously ill and yet still under ridiculous pressure, it'll be at least a week before I get to this.

The question posed to radicals by the next US presidential election is very simple. "So do you want to build revolution under instant fascism, or more weird halfass post-neoliberalism? Which sounds more difficult to you?"

You can get some historical background in brief from a number of familiar figures, including

Chomsky on Israel's "lawn-mowing" in 2014: https://chomsky.info/20140807/

Finkelstein on Sanders's utter failure in response to impending genocide: https://youtu.be/9R49v3K29mM?si=iFH3-lwq_-ySCjsp

All my unfollowers for calling the Israeli invasion a grab for "liebensraum" ought to be reminded of the state's decades-long casual pastime of "mowing the lawn". Those are their words, not mine. Only the worst sort of person could begin to excuse the long- and particularly now-expressed goals and sentiments of this increasingly fascist government. It should be trivial to denounce any organization that massacres innocent civilians.

I love reggae and sometimes turn to it to relax, but there are so many songs of struggle that squeeze the tears from my eyes. I know it's peaceful happy music to many people, but if you listen to the words they often describe such profound tragedy.

The last time my weight fell below 170lb I felt near death WITHOUT an inhuman workload like this…

Welp... Wasn't paying attention to my weight and apparently, under all this pressure I burned every last bit of my body fat and glycogen, hit a wall metabolically, lost my appetite, and ended up in the hospital about to faint with my heart slamming at 170/115 BP (I'm usually low). So yet another doctor who doesn't understand my conditions can flippantly tell me I'm fine, I should "reconsider this diet", and kick me out. Gradually refeeding on bed rest and all the hectoring deadlines can fuck off

Or you could rock out like a big cat OS and do some .AppleDoubles.

LB: That would be super useful for a bunch of file formats, but many developers like Adobe and even Apple themselves have sometimes used resource forks to store important data, and if those get stripped you're SOL. Mind your multifork filesystem in archival processes… they are typically relocated into extended attributes when handled correctly